Locked from the Inside

Damn careless today.
Went for futsal, i was late. I reached and im changing. I always put my shirt and stuffs at the behind seats. So i stopped engine, open the backseat door, throw my car key on the back seats, pick up my shoes and shirt, and change. After changing and packing, i terpress my car key alarm lock button but i didn't realised it. The alarm ranggg...stupid me thought the car key is still insert at the engine startup slot, so i closed the door behind and booh...MY CAR IS LOCKED FROM THE INSIDE....duhhhh....the alarm keep ringing but i cant do anything. Luckily i didn't set any timer for the alarm, so it didn't rang again after the first time. Was abit frus but it didn't spoil my mood for futsal though..hahahaa..

So how did i open my car lock in the end ? of course went back to get the spare key laaaa...and who is helping you with that ? have to paksa my fatty laaa...kesian him have to fetch me back and forth..hahahaa...thanks thanks. Luckily its in Klang !

DVD

Last Saturday was nice. Started off with the bah kut teh treat from bulat, celebrating of her getting work promotion ! congrats congrats ! i went back for a not so short nap, did some work, then joined the gang for dvd. They were finishing one of the dvd when i arrived, so i only got to watch Just Like Heaven. Some left and we continue with Manhunt on Channel V...hahahahaa..back for dinner, a short jammin session, a short work out session, a short msn chatting session, then back to Aldy's place again for 2nd round movie marathon. Watched half of Independence Day, 20 mins of football match between Chelsea and Liverpool, Heirloom, Scary Movie 4. Back home it was almost 5am. And luckily it was Sunday the next day. And the gang went for lunch and shopping the next day, wonder how they managed to wake up sooo early :p

It feels like Melbourne again. Everyone is so nearby, well of course, the difference is we need to to take a short drive around lah.


"when all else fails, go sweat yourself"
"i suggest sleep..hahahaha."
"hhmm..ok. When you are pissed and stress, go sweat urself out"
"haha...i still suggest sleeping is the best solution !"

#@$@!$!$!## .hahahahhahaa :)

sigh sign

Flashbacks of memories how we started this last year
everything went well, everything is good
not long ago we know there's the problem
i thought we solve it but still it occurs
the game hasn't really started
but you said you are tired
you are really tired..

What's wrong with you ?
Where's your driving passion ?
where is the maturity that i always see in you ?
We are still very far from destination yet
What's going on with you ?

You may have your personal issues
but running away won't help
its not like the end of the world
where's your responsibility ?
do you know what are you doing ?

Its your own decision
or rather i did make my decision
its what you said today that
i find no other encouraging reasons
that we should tolerate
that we should help
that we should understand
that we should..hold on

someone out there still believes in you
someone out there still finding ways for you
someone out there still waiting for your news
but you..
your excuse is loose
you gave up too soon
you lost yourself

I might be harsh but im not heartless
you can say im selfish and stubborn
but there is just no more room for drama
i dunno when you gonna sway away again
no point coming back and sigh again
there is once and there will always be again
by the time isnt that the same cycle again ?

i look forward and move on
assumming you were not on the same boat anymore
i wear the mask of unthreaten and steady
deep inside im pretending
like its no big deal

i should be sleeping actually
i can't sleep and decided to write this
maybe it is starting to sink in
above dissappointment and stress
im... sad

stupid pimple

ooooo...this ugly shits of bump
keep getting it around my nose these days...

damn pain ehhhh....duhhhh...

same boat

sometimes im harsh on you..
sometimes i push you too hard
sometimes im not qualify to judge you to start with

sometimes im being shit..
sometimes you have to bear with me

sometimes you surprised me
sometimes you dissappointed me
and most of the time you amazed me

how you handle things
how you improve drastically

because i never deny your ability
coz you have always prove to me
to you i put trust
coz we are on the same boat
share the same passion
hope it will always be

Most of all, thanks for bearing with me always


I think i haven't did enough yet as a friend..

happy birthday, fatty.

I was at a place where you have to shout to others for them to hear you

a stage full of dressed up good looking people
a glass of barcardi Lemon Coke after sooo long
a nicotine menthol stick on my finger
an eehhyooo ehhyooo music track mixer

a glance of sexy
a smile of cheeky
a sip to heaven
a move of actions

wow...its been a while.. !!

absolutely zero

lights out
playing absolutely zero
by jason mraz

got in the mood
mood to be alone
mood to think
mood to feel emo
for this short 3 mins

feeling
fucking lazy
but im not lost
but fucking unmotivated

work piled up
late night staying up
acne breaking out
hungry empty stomach

I need my dose
dose of distortions
dose of writings
dose of screamings
dose of sweats
dose of craps
and i like that

Don't ask me don't nag me
Don't make assumptions please
what is here please stay here
else i won't bother

here i can be me
out there i won't be like this
thats the purpose of my blog writing
this is my stress relieve
i wonder if everyone is like this

You should know who i mean
You should know what i mean

3 lights away

The long awaited puff..
it feels nice and cool

first time in slazh
couldn't care less

company in crime
surrounded by dark trees

a sense of float
a moment of high

3 ticts away

shouldn't be waited

truth or dare
beers and 100

another night of crazy
a night with kinky shits

I should be working
I ended up working

though
i weren't grumbling
not really complaining
i'm procastinating

Break

I forced myself to finish the chee cheong fun...
I was waiting...

I was kinda busy
when it came in

I couldn't finished even a double cheeseburger for dinner...
but i thank you for being you

Friday
my mind keep drifting away
sorting myself out
distract myself away

the scars were always there
reminds me that the past is real...

Everything will be ok back again
the mended and broken parts will be fix soon

as long as i don't touch the knobe
as long as i hide away the keys

Im happy
and i wish you happy

:)

The friend..12.04

The friend who play football dribbling and passing on the street road with me, that was crazy
The friend who i fetch with my ol'skool bike to everywhere, countable accidents
The friend who i broke his glass but tiukao me like hell when i offered to pay him back
The friend who always gives me shit, and helps me in deep shit
The friend who my parents only knew of my friend back then
The friend who sometimes force me to go vegetarian with him in canteen
The friend who indirectly made me lost my first girlfriend
The friend who i were asked by his family to inform him the first place of his mother's departure
The friend who tried to change my mind when i decided to leave science stream
The friend who i indirectly screwed up his sister's wedding pictures
The friend who was never lucky so far in relationship
The friend who brighten up my every birthdays
The friend who flew away for the 4th year
The friend who always support and encourage me in everything

The friend of my best childhood memories...

"hey, still remember wat day is 2day?my bro's birthday! as a friend of him, hav you wish him yet ?if not, do it now lo ! help me ask the others to wish him also. k ?"


And...
i
fucking
forgot
your
birthday

If not of your brother reminding me with sms on your birthday night, i would have ..seriously...forgot.

What kind of friend am i.

I feel like a pimp

Bullshits !

Tonight i have the most crappiest sessions with the gals, the couple and the friend. Guessed i must be high from the nasi lemak or 100 plus. The debatings, the shoutings, the pinchings, the laughters, the echoes, well..nothing important...all bullshit...hahahahahhaa..

Or must be because i won the single match tonight..wuahahahaha... !
And thanks YL for the round treat..hahahaha..seems like quite some free meals these weeks, Lotus on fatty, BahKutTeh on KW, and today..yea yea...but im still broke though...

They must be surprised when they hear me sing chinese songs tomolo ! kekekee...yea..what else but ktv..hahahaa..

Here comes the weekend, benjoy !

Drye's Jammin Session.2

The jammin session that day...i was sick...but nothing could stop me..hahahahaaa...

Everything
The first jam, too slow, guitar and bass off tune, can't hear wei loon's kick, arrangement abit out, my vocal sucks, stopped halfway. Retune, reconstruct, after the 2nd rejam, everything starts to come in piece ! by the time we rehearse it for the 4th time, i no longer think about whether the bass will go off key, whether the drum will sounds weird, nice ! maybe just a bar or 2 of drums that wei loon cant remember how i really compose it in the demo..nvm..next time !

Time
The first jam, fuck...it was awesome ! damn...it wasn't a problem for wei loon since we jammed this before the last time. But for Taik, the bassist, everything he played was ...cool..damn !

Possibility
Nice ! besides the first time we stopped halfway because the bridge was confusing, the rejam again was ..complete ! hahahahahaa... except maybe just figure out that wei loon got lost in some parts dunno when to go into chorus..i guessed so..hahahahaha..you da man !

Fallin Apart
I think this is my personal favourite song. 3 attempts and we stopped, coz Taik admit he couldn't get what was i playing from the demo or from the tabs i gave, until now seeing how i play it. While Wei Loon being forgetful again..hahahaa..well..i dun blame, it was a kinda progressive rock song to start with.

My Way
Didn't thought we will jam this song, coz it wasn't in our jammin list actually. But it just hit off like that, everything...just like that..hahahaha..damn nice feeling though !

I still got quite some complaints though. Like the sound system, the drumkick sound, the mic stand, the mic volume, the studio guitar amps, and the 2 other bandmates that couldn't make it. But practise makes perfect, i couldn't ask more for the first jammin sessions with Taik, the bassist. And i believe Taik can play alot better adding in his own style the next sessions, coz he is just playing according to my tabs for this time.

KF : hey..still interested to jam with that bassist fella ?
WL: Of course. He is the best one we jammed before so far.

I agreed..hahahahah

Looking forward for more jammin sessions. And please, i hope i don't fall sick on that very day again...duhhh !

Ps. We saw you that day. Either you are blind, or you didn't saw us, or you just overlooked us..coz we were just 2 tables away and you passed by us twice...hahahaha...well, i didn't greet you also to start with, doesn't matter la...dunno..dun care.

Blackie

She cried tonight, midnight
It was weird..it seldom happened.
I went down to her, to check on her.
She was alright, but she is crying,
she look so sad, why...
I know why..
she want to get out from the kernel..
but mom always put her in the kernel in the night...
don't ask me why

Her eyes are wet
transparently glowing...
heavy breathingly
looking at me...
i keep smiling and saying
"sleep la...sleep la"

then i remember the old sayings..
if you rub the tears of a dog onto your own eyes...
you can see the "other" world...

She usually don't cry,
tonight she does,
and there's the tears..
but no..i didn't took the risk...
crazy..hahahaha...
my own imagination could oledi kill me

tonight i felt pity
i left her out from the kernel
im a good boy
but for sure mom gonna nag me tomolo

Hopefully the night is still the same
as long as she don't bising

Best presentation

Today i had the best "presentation" ever...i guessed so..

Maybe i was sick and weak, maybe i just dunwan to start the fire knowing me, i will just shoot everything out. Maybe it was vc, who played the cards so smartly and carefully, which makes me presented it in the end in the most general ways. Seriously, i was surprised myself.

Things that supposed to said, is said.
Things that supposed to be done is done
Things that supposed to be discuss, is discuss

problems are clear
misunderstandings are clear
direction clear
major role clear

I think it does scratched the match fire a bit. But it didn't spread off just like that. Everything under control, i made my point, he made his point, so does he.

Everyday we learn something, today i learnt :

Outsiders always knows clearer whats happening between. When you see them, you are the outsiders ; when they see you, they are the outsiders.

Water Balloons

I know everyone knows that night is gonna be a fun crazy nite for all of us.
Everything well prepared...the belons are readily loaded with water, the airgun is armed, the cake is nicely cream whipped.

The plan abit spoiled when the birthday boy dinner was cut short, and saw us preparing the water belons. But there was no turning back for him...wuahahahhaha

The supposed plan is to bring the water belons over to a nearby padang to play and celebrated. But dunno who started throwing balloons at KW..... and..----- war starts !!!

15 minutes of war... KW avoiding and running..and he slipped and fell...yea..wet floor. Knee cap hitted, pain, care, cant stand, end up at the nearest clinic.

Party ends...just like that ! hahahahaha...

What a birthday present to you, KW :)

Well, anyway, we make him cut the cake the next day and belanja us yumchar. Yea, his knee is ok the next day.

thanks

Wooo..thanks all for the supports and motivations. Alot of unexpected smses and msgs ...really really unexpected..appreciate that

Didn't know many of my friends actually take the time to download and listen to all the songs. The power of MSN..hahahaha...Felt kinda weird knowing people heard my sucky vocals..hahahaha...and of course..screamings..

But guess this all started off with the acoustic "song for sale" song. Among all the compliments and critics, my best satisfaction was knowing that it actually inspired some of my friends to do things they wanted.

I wrote that song for someone ?
well..maybe..subconsciously..to someone that i once really care for..
The lyrics ? hahaa..like i said..i just sang out just like that..no proper lyrics..just the chorus

Doesn't matter where im going
for as long as you can hear me
its the best thing i 've ever had
for as long as you can make me real

Write more acoustic songs like that? yea..i will considered that if i found a great vocalist..hehe
Write chinese songs ? i dunno..never tried..hahahahaha. I scare it will turn out and sounds like English ..hahahah..

But like the title itself..i wrote that song..is actually to really sell that song...to whoever that interested to buy it..ahhahaha...

I feel motivated. Thanks alot.

http://www.i-bands.net/audiovault/bands/1444/music.php

k...gonna rest a while. Whipped cream+balloon+flour+water+airgun party tonight !!!! hope the girls wear white..ahhahahahahahahaa...

FEEL

Was yumcharing together with Ah Loong tonight. He shared this funny story.

He have this girl staff in his bridal shop ( family business ). And this girl got a boyfriend. For the first few weeks (or months i forgot), the boyfriend will drive his car and going a few circles around the bridal shop area after sending the girlfriend to work..

When asked why do he do that ?

"i drive rounding around your shop, so that you will FEEL that im guarding and protecting you"

WTF....... ?????

8

8 met
on a heart shape day
2 were my old's
the rest are new

from planned sushi
to a waited more than an hour
but food never arrived cafe
to a dim sum restaurant

thought was a one night stop
ended up almost every weekend
every other day
for sure every wednesday

different backgrounds
funny stories
fresh characters
balance gender
caring and laughter

funnyhow it all connected
despite the connected area
and the circle is growing out 8
where were they before this ?
where were i before this ?
how were we before this ?

Connect - disconnect - reconnect

make believe.

Hgih

After few days practises, finally managed to jump and play and sing with my GRX40, hanging as low as till below my waist..looks so much cooler ! wuahahahaha.. now i need a mic stand ..!

Realtek sound card not nice lehh..i want back my VIA... !!!! @#$!%!$!#@!

Jammin Jammin Jammin ... can't wait... !

9 more picture messages in 4 days time..shit shit shit !!

Banyak ammendments...die die die !

life getting back to ol' batman...ooo..not very good le !

Parents cold war ends... finally mannnn !

air cond filter changeddd ... i get cold now !!

Washed my car after the rain ...so please don't rain !

3000km passed service point ..how how...shit..i gonna kena from my dad later...

hey hey..you must be sleeping, waiting for your reply ...hope you get the job yea !!

Ooh oohh..another Flash again...makan makan...thanks thanks !

Sorry ah the recent face for Jusco Aeon model, sure you must be dissappointed leh..hope to see you soon anyway..hehehe !

Zeon Zeon Zeon...so headache ....Ganozhi Ganozhi ... waiting for your positive reply

SRC cepat call back when cik Jan is not around !! im busy leh..hahahaha..jk !

I threw away burned back work cd ! lucky Jo is still around !!

Pass pass goal tomolo .. yeah
drop shot smash after tomolo.. yeah

Ice Age 2 .. yeah !

Genting..come come...! but don't get fooled on the day !

The N times he borrowed 50 bucks from me unreturned...haha..but its alrite...500, 5000 bucks or more also i will borrow or help , coz i will always love him !

k....time to sleep..1000000% will be waken up by 0122248512 tomolo ! hahahahaa...:)


Good morning everyone !!! thanks for readin my bullshit..im a zombie jorrrr...shit..hungry...dun care la..not the first time....nite. nite.

Song For Sale

Finally after one week...my PC is rebornnnn...

Thought was the RAM problem..but after finally brought over for checking..the harddisk was ok, but its my motherboard problem..sudah almost gone burst. Must be overheat or something, coz the chips all look like sudah kembangg..like almost gonna burst like that...luckily i brought it over for service in time..else..i really dunno what will happened next..

Changed my motherboard and finally everything is up working again. Running on 768 now, 256mb faster than my previous speed. But my old 512MB ram will be coming back soon :) coz previously i thought was my RAM spoilt, so i brought in for a change, ( FYI, Kingston RAM got lifetime warranty ), and the computer guy, which is my bro's friend, was kind enough to borrow me a 256 RAM for temporary use. So..imagine i've been running on 256 for the past 1 week...really slow lor...one Photoshop and one Illustrator application enough to make my computer freeze...hahaha..

I bought a new 512 Kingston RAM. Together with the friend's 256RAM, running on 768 now. Hopefully my old 512 RAM will be back by next week, so i can run on 1 GIG RAM, after returning the 256..i sounds a bit jakun, coz i know memang alot of people have been running on 1 gig RAM or more for some times..hahahaha...

Sometimes...money can save you some problems and makes your life easier..hahaha..or like Frisha said, bring happiness to your pc..hahahaha..

Hit my walkman record button, and recorded this one song live just like that, spontaneously, on the spot just like that..hahaa, during the time when my pc cant even boot. No drums and bass, so just acoustic..song for sale....

http://www.i-bands.net/audiovault/bands/1444/music.php

support support a bit..ahhahahaa

Blue Screen

aiyooo..please laa..enough of blue screen jorrrrr....
leave me alone for a while...
let me finished up my work for tomorrow's deadline at least...
be good to me lah...tolong tolonggg...


my RAM is giving me problem. Besides, i think my almost 3 years old desktop is ..old.

Thinking of the money i need to spend to upgrade my stuffs...

duhhhh...of all the time but this time !

The god must be playing with me ! else the god must be crazyy..hahaha..

McD Queue

Sunday. Dropped by for McD before 9:25pm Underworld...

beratur-ing. a voice from behind
stranger : you see, the queue is long but you don't complaint. At home, you are hungry..you shout heyy..where is dinner ? how long more ??

me :(turn around to see this 30s indian guy)..hehe..
me : ( find it rude to be quiet) well.. So... where's your wife ?

He pointed to the his wife who is queuing up on the other line. Actually the queue wasn't that long to start with, im next after this girl in front of me..

me : oohh..family day huh ?
stranger : yea..happy day !( cheeky smile )

i think he heard me wrongly..hahahaha..

stranger : so you see, the thing now is everyone is nicely queueing up and no one grumbles, but at home you blame when dinner is not ready yet..why did it take so long, isnt it ?

me : ( its like the same question repeated again..how? how?..) eerr..well..at home you get to rest nicely on your comfy sofa and wait, here you have to stand and wait maybe..

stranger : hhmm hhmm...( cheeky smile )

me : smile back ( FUCK..i dunno what am i talking about also..wuahahahahhaaa...)

Lucky its my turn to order...

stranger : so this is your supper ?
me : eerr..dinner actually
stranger : oohh..

(silent)... it supposed to be actually from the start !

me : have a nice day sir
stranger : enjoy your meal ( looking at my ordered food all the while )

Funny encounter again..hahaha...

Sunday Morning Bluesss

"Told you before, nothing is 永远或是你想它怎样它就会如你所要得那样！！ 也告诉过你，没有人会记得你所做过或所付出过的。每一个人都只会记得你所犯过的错，但你的好，只有自己懂。。。每一个人都有自己该走的路，当他们选择了自己的道路，就不会想再回头想起从前了，只有那些不能前进的人才会永远在原地踏步，还在怀念从前。记得，爱你该爱的人而不是逼人家听你的一切。不要强求，也不要为此不开心！！ 好好过个充实的生活吧。。。。。"

quote this from a friend's friendster blog comment post.

Sometimes, or many times, i try to prove the phrase above incorrect, or not neccessary...but after a few rounds, i admitted. People do changed. Be it for better or worse.

I find myself moved on too fast. Sometimes i wondered, was it me moving on too fast or im forced to move on. Funny how people connect, disconnect and reconnect. Everything takes both side to work, if the chemistry is not there anymore, its not there anymore then :) the more you try to make it happen, the more you are faking it.

Things are always like that. Sometimes you know you are happy, and sometimes you know you can be happier. Try to find your best ways to ease and cheer yourself up when you are unhappy, try to take a step back and look and everything will be okay. Just try your best and the rest will be destined.

I tend to get things that i don't really want, or need. Be it attention, affection, caring, friendship, sex, work, business etc.I back out when i face these. But things that i really wanted is always not in my luck..hahahaha... I can't make everyone else satisfied, i can't make everyone to enjoy what i like, and i don't plan to also. I am mine..hahahahaha

Life is soooo short....you search, you wait, you found, you lost, you get, you fail, you fall, you tried, you enjoyed, you been through, you believe, you knew, you forget, you hate, you pissed, you fucked, you earn, you learn, you trust, you were....

Glimpse of Horror and Hope

17 march. My PC ...crashed...all my stuffs since melbourne...gone...

You see, shit happens. I always know that. I even had a small little signboard i bought from Melbourne written "shit happens" ..and it always happened on the most unexpected time, the very time that you fucking dunwan it to happen.

I need to hand up 2 projects by the next day when this happened, and was totally devastated. The selected working files were all corrupted.. Try to format my pc and my RAM just chose to spoilt on the same time..formatting were corrupted halfway..cant even boot.I felt like crying..almost wanted, but then i felt stupid. I left everything there just like that, planning to go out for a break, get a beer, or maybe get myself drunk, not wanting to think about anything anything....

Was on my way out when i got a call. We talked...blurted out all our problems and situations...i felt much better.. Was still driving and wandering around when my fatty called, offering to help. I feel relieved. Then my bro called, or i called him, i forgot. And he offered to help with my crashed harddisk.

My bro came back earlier just to help out. Spent the whole night analysing and operating the whole CPU, asking for help from his friend from time to time. Finally i see the glimpse of hope when all my files are recovered. It was almost 3 by then. Went over to fatty's place and relieved to find out the work half done. We worked till morning and managed to get everything in time for submission.

So..i didn't get myself a break that night..haha

Am using my bro's laptop now as my pc is still in "operation".

Thanks dude for the call ya. You know who you are :)
Thanks fatty who helped so much, but then you memang should..hahaha :)
Thanks alot to my lil bro who helped me so much when i fucking need a help. I know that "chee cheong fun" is not enough to show my appreciation..hehehe :)

Rich

Today i met a "fortune teller" by coincidence..or rather they planned it.
She looked at me, concentrated stare..kinda ..hhmm..scary..well, i didn't know she knows how to fortune tell until in the end.

She said quite alot. Quite true some of them..hahaa..But i like her first phrase.
"you know, you will be rich by the age of 27"

That made my day..wuahahhahaa..

She taught us quite some ways of face-telling.But this is the only one i remembered. Put ur 2nd and 3rd fingers in between ur eyebrows..if it fits nicely 2 fingers in between, you are usually destined to be rich.

Faster go try that !!!!! hahahahahahaha...and don't blame me if it doesnt !

think too much

Quite alot of good things happened these days, these weeks..this year tilll now..

Learned a lot, heard alot, made quite some new friends, made some deals, got some jobs, found vocalist, found my passion ...all is good, yea..its all good.

But yet..something is missing, Slowly seeing the distance and difference from them, maybe it was a mistake i guessed, after all.

I miss them, i dunno if they do, maybe they don't. Don't really blame also. Friendship takes 2 sides to clap.

Maybe this will carry on and will slowly faded off from my mind, maybe i will be happier, maybe they do to.

Maybe im still that sensitive and emotional guy like said. I don't deny, but i learnt.

Sometimes i wonder, where do i belong ?

Maybe life is like that..maybe i think too much again.

Blur

why do you call someone blur ...a blur sotong ???

give me 10 reasons !!! hahahaa..

Lost in Translation

Was doing a leaflet first in English, then the BM version. While doing the admendments...come across these words that was so weird and funny after translation...but thats what the client edited ! hahahaha..! or maybe my BM really jakun..hhaha

ongoing assessment - latih tubi
notepad - pad nota
website links - pautan laman web
BestariEd Online - BestariEd Atas Talian ( WTF !! )
Minimum System Requirement / Server - Keperluan Sistem Minima / Pelayan ( hahahahahahhaa..)

have a great day everyone !

dong dong

it was kinda scary at first sight
i think everyone noticed but no one bring it up
but someone did in the end

sure it must be painful and suffering for you
to go through this shit no one have to
no longer we get your calls for a drink
i don't know what are you thinking

I bet you feel this is unfair
people like me doing it everyday but still ok
maybe one day i will face the consequences

sigh...
imagine how long more our road in this life
appearance is not all although it does matters
sometimes and maybe all the time
but somehow people will get use to it
people accepted it and cool with it

take your time
but hope you will come back soon :)

Zhap Fan

finally she talked to me..
it has been just that sweet caring smile for the past weeks
suddenly i dunno what to say to her but just smile back
"kuk fa yit hai mai ? " ( chysanthemum hot rite ?)
nodded nodded

not the first time anyway..
I remembered she told me before
quiet boy attract people's attention

izzit true ?
ahhahahaha...

That Friday

Why must you remind me how i felt that day
why must you remind me what i expected that day

why must you remind everyone about that day !!!!!!!!!!!!

why must you make me feel a sharp needle penetrating my weak heart
why must you remind me what i am who i am
why must you push the blame to everyone
why must you...

I just want something very simple on that Friday. But i didn't got it...
maybe my treat wasn't worth it
maybe I don't worth it

i forgot that day
Now i remembered
Now i want to forget that day again

You spoilt my day.
I hate this feeling.

Damn

Mounting Room

please keep this door close"
a sense of cold
a sense of alone

green green green everywhere
squarish art board everywhere
cutted unused papers anywhere

push up tick push up tock push up tick again
that was the sound of my cutter
place my art nicely and slice
does the green feels the pain ?
slice cut slice cut

look down and around for the black card
lucky enough u find one nicely cut

prepare the art
spray spray spray
don't try to breath
else you will suffocate

place your art on the black card
no time to measure you just paste
look at the whole and make sure it looks great
else you will come back again and complaint

fight for fish

fight for fish ?

oh dear fish, there are many ways to cook a fish. But just knowing how to cook is not enough woh, have you tried eaten it before ?i bet you longed for it.

You don't have to tell me how you think it will taste like, coz i have tasted it, others might have to, but not you. Don't you realised it ?

Tell me if you get to taste it. I will tell you how it tasted like before..hahahahahaa

100

nice to be pamper
nice to be taken care
nice to be told
nice to be a part of it

Not nice to hear scandals
Not nice when its from two side
Not nice when you are the messenger
Not nice when you have to bear to listen
Not nice when you see the bad sides of it

Nice when it comes to proposal
Not nice when you have to take risk
Not nice when you it comes to money
but i have to think for my own company
am i being lucky or unlucky

Life is about an act
She taught me that
but she taught me too much
and she told me too much
how am i gonna deal with this
how am i gonna open my mouth

i hope she understand business is business
i hope she understand personal is personal
im gonna tell her

100

Saturday Morning

Stoning in the jam
thinking where to go
she msged on the right time
and thus we headed date

a tap on the shoulder
yes its a friend i should have know
which i never get the chance to know
guessing left telling right
final guess you never know

It feels weird at first
but i dunno about her
drinking beer getting closer
i know what she wants but im hiding
i sent her off saying im sleepy
i did nothing wrong so i shouldn't be guilty
i went back in everything change already
it was a night to remember really


I met her back after 10 years
no more the tomboy but an angel now
her smile. it tickles me.
how she reminds me of one of my crushes
alot better actually. Alot.
but unfortunately she is taken
this is how things always happens

one two three four makes me feels like a pimp
i hope Aldy is around so i dun feel like an extinct spesis
all are new friends but more like very old friends
nice to know everyone still remembers klang

flirting is not new to me
but it feels weird with you flirting with me
like as you trying to hint me something
one wrong step i know everyone gets hurt
ask me something and im still taking it
seems like im adding more oil to the fire

ha ha is the first reaction when i heard it from them
seems like its not only me feeling that way
making drama stories faking intention
what they said was funny but maybe its right
hang urself to dead and you will get all your attention

I hope to see you smile
but it don't have to be for me
it was a past but still i remember
it feels one kind knowing your trouble
i hope they wont bothers you too much
i hope you will smile on the phone

Suddenly everything seems like a puzzle
everyone telling everyone different scandals
everyone knows everyone but not everyone

today i found another place of fun
a friend to rely and a place of ease

He took a step back and look
everything seems so clear now
He no longer keep asking why
coz he thought he knows
or maybe he choose just not to bother
maybe he bother but he pretend dun care
it was easier actually
to just be the one watching

when you want something badly
it turns out deadly
when you let it go and get your life on
it comes back to you just like this
like this is better like that

adik pergi mana is the last thing i remember on my way home
cant the police sees that im tooo sober to be driving
when will someone at least call me abang or mr

hahahaha...ok...im high...not drunk k ! and i need to work on blardyyy SUndayyyy..potong stimm betul !!!

V'day

oh..shit..
things happens when you never thought it wil be
whats happening now
is something that i never thought will ever happened to me
and it is happening now..

Several different incoming numbers
it was the same person
Several flirting on the phone
it was fun and new

Now a present on my table
oh i got a present on valentine's day !
unwrap to be something that i told her yesterday
surprises me yet makes me feel guilty

too straight forward makes me think
different race culture makes me step back

should i play along with the game now ?

ask myself..i know...
ask myself..i know...

well...HAPPY BELATED VALENTINE DAY to everyone !!!!

drama 1

7:05
Was planning to leave early for a dinner treat
"hey..got ammendments..you help me...don't go back 1st"

.......damn

8:05pm
I was late for the dinner. Damn frus di. Friends calling on and off.
I did the changes. Printed the mock up and found out some mistake. So i changed and reprint again. I went up to get the new print, when come back down, she was there..checking on the wrong printing..

"hey..why is this like that ? like blur and pixelated ???"
"ooo...this is the corrected wan actually"
"haiyaa...say laaa..don't scare us lahh !"

"ehhh..why do you put this 2 buntings in one A4 ???"
"you were supposed to put 1 bunting in 1 A4 ! why ?? you helping company to save printing and paper cost ah ??"


Damn..i so feel like shouting and snapping at her :
"HEY...IM STILL DOING THE CHANGES OK ??? I DIDN'T ASK YOU TO COME AND CHECK ON IT NOW !!!! DAMN YOU BITCHHH !!!!"

And it supposed wasn't my work to start with. The other designer was mc for the past 3 days, and i have to take over all his workload...damn tiring okk...I have to spend like dunno how long just to find back the work file ! i know the head AE herself was stress and wasn't too good mood herself.. but can't she respect me abit and talk nicely ?? ... wat "you want to help company save paper printing cost ah ? damn sarcasticc...cibai !

When she left, everyone was like making facial actions and bisikking to me to don't bother her..hahaha..no one likes her to start with ! hahahaa..
XX : " you know lahh..she is not married yet. She doen't have good sex life...so thats why laa ! "

My office is really a crazy place for scandals and rumours..hahahahahahahahaa...

if she ever shout at me for no proper reason again..i will just "bitch..shut up !" /..hahahahahhaa

blacklist c

It was quite packed the moment i step in. Was quite a while ago since i last dropped by..hahaha.

Everyone went in the room..and out..no one took more than 2 mins. It was my turn..

"hi..so..boy..you still studying rite ?"
"eerr..nop. Im working di"
"so whats your company name ?"
"XXX Advertising"
"oohh...so you didn't went to work this morning rite ?"
"yea.."
"so what excuse do you want to give ?"
"*stoned*...eerr...bad stomach"
"ok...pay and get your mc"

i walked out with a smile..hahaha...

Just Feel Better

Santana feat. Steven Tyler - Just Feel Better

She said I feel stranded
And I can't tell anymore
If we coming or I'm going
It's not how I planed it
I've got the key to the door
But it just won't open

And I know, I know, I know
Part of me says let it go
That life happens for a reason
I don't, I don't, I don't
It goes I never went before
But this time, this time

I'm gonna try anything that just feel better
Tell me what to do
You know I can't see through the haze around me
And I do anything that just feel better

And I can't find my way
Girl I need a change
And I do anything that just feel better
Any little thing that just feel better

Long to hold you in my arms
To all things I ought to leave behind, yeah
It's really getting nowhere
I think I need a little help this time!

Yeah

-----

really like this song. The lyrics like a bit sad but the song doesn't sounds sad...more like happy..hahahha.. Steven Tyler didn't overshow his mouth eating mic vocal ability here, he did just that little bit of his style which really make this song unique

yea yea..finally i got this song..hahhhahahhaa

An Interview with ..part1

You : hi nice to meet you.
me : yea..nice to meet you too. Please have a seat

you : thanks. Can we start now ?
me : yea .sure.
you : so, hows your new year celebration ? did you get a lot of angpaos ?
me : new year as usual la. 38 38 here and there. Angpao money getting lesser year by year lehh..sigh

you : elaborate more laaa..
me : oo..as usual..the gambling tradition started off on new year eve at Yoon Sing's place. Many people turned out this time, including Dow Wei and the A1 gang. This time, i played more on mahjong...hahahaha...damn fun..keep tiu kaoing each other, hinting each other what biji they gonna throw, conning each other...and the best part is to win ..win ..win and winn..hahahaha..but damn..i lost 17 bucks on the 1st dayyy....

you : what time u woke up on New year first day then ?
me : don't remember.. noon i think. Then got called, then out for the tradition house to house visiting !!! damn hot...hot damn..tried almost all the pineapple biscuit in every friend's house. All tasted so same yet different..hahahaha. And of
course...what else but gamble alsoo.. dun remember what else happened that day.

you : what else do you remembered ?
me : i remembered one of the night..we were at Li Keng's place. Woo..i miss her so much, and her house hospitality..hahahaa...play mahjong and drink red wine, then liquor, then wine again, then finished the whole container of potato chips, then jelak of the pineapple tarts, then high high play mahjong..then i winnn...see..i win when we were not betting..tiu..cibaii..hahahahah..i went home feeling quite drowsy..hahaha..

you : hahahaha..
me : One of the night, it was boy's night out..hahahahaha..8 of us planned this once a year clubbing session..our first in mind..was to go RUSH...but it was so quite the empty when we reached there..which was quite potong stimm..finally we decided to change venue. Went over to Hartamas's Soda, which turn out to be worseeee...so silent...finally we know KL is the only last hope for us. And it did, we ended up in packed Beach Club, Thai Club was too packed anyway. Opened bottle and toast the whole night awayyyy...the band upstage before the DJ start spinning, preformed "our time is running out" by MUSE...woahhh..damn surprise...and it rockk...or maybe im not sober di that time..hahahahaha...

you : did you get any chick's number ?
me : hahahaha...i slipped my namecard into May's pocket..wuahahahhahaa..and she msged backk..ahhahahaha

you : wat laooo..what did you did to her ? faster sayyyy
me : i didnt rape her laaa..bodahhh

you : chun or not ?
me : anyway...we were still so high after they closed at 3am. Potong stimmmm...and we went for Bah Kut Teh after that..YES !!!! 4:30am in the morning and we are having Bak Kut Tehh..just fresh from the bowl soup..best giler !!!

You : wahhh.. crazy ahh..no need sleep ah ? what time did you slept then ?
me : the moment i reached home..hahahahahahha

You : .....
me : the next day night we went for Neway's KTV. RM48++ per person with buffet. Ada chinese food, western food, japanese food, dessert, toppings, sushi, dimsummm...woahh..damn best ! and damn alot of new songs...damn..we must go again one day !!!

you : wahh....
me : on the way back, all of us have this urge to go check out Flam and Qbar. Reached there, all said the chicks there are better than the ones in Beach Club..ahhahahaha...but we didn't went in in the end..coz Kevin was wearing
shorts..

you : hahaha..sure all la la muis..hahahahhahaa
me : the next next day, i slept the whole noon. Woke up, relatives came..same questions la..where you working laa..hows work laa...whats ur plan laa...wahh..so tall di la..grow up di laa...

you : hahahahaa...
me : not to say they give big angpao also..ahhaha...just kidding. Then the night, it was a sudden plan then everyone ended up at Vee's place for the 2nd time. Blackjackkkk time...i won abit ..hahahaha...Ahloong the banker won 80+..!@#$!#@! ..half of the money was Keguang's bet..ahhahaha..it was a nice night..we all the shoutings and naggings and play dumb facial tricks..hahahahaa..at the end, the banker was forced to treat us supper, and the supper costed him RM90+..he cursed...hahahahaha :)

you : wahh..kesian him lehhh...
me : alah..he so rich...dun worryyy..

you : hahaha..hey..brb..toilet. continue later./

Happy Birthday to Me !

Finally decided to clear the pics from my phone camera after weeks...



wooaahhhh...



mamak session after futsal...normal routine



he never fail to entertain us !! hahahaha..



before our very first presentation.



My cleaned room...! which wasn't clean by me !



pre-RUSH posing with our new blink blink tailou ! went Beach Club in the end instead.



the banker that won 80+ bucks treating us supper, which costed him 90bucks ! hahaha



RM48++ buffet+3hours KTV. Japanese, Chinese food, dessert, dimsum, best gila !



I thought it was the same number. Until i realised it wasn't after taken !



Oo..spider..you will reach heaven once i push the viper button..hahahaha



Alvin's last roti canai before flying back to Shanghai.



Lou Lou Lou... !!!!



not really that nice food choice this year..hhmmm



birthday cake for everybody.



2nd stop at vee's house.

Happy Chinese New Year

Another stress filling, tiredness haunting week has passed, finally. And the best part is that, i got my first pay check from my current company yesterday, in cash somemore!!! hahaha.."woo..cc..cash ah ??"... " you nak raya kan ?" ... so nice :)

Dad and mom was having cold war again few days ago, which added up to my tiredness and numbness everytime i reached home. What a time in the year but this time ??



Nearly cannot make it for my S3ACA class gathering yesterday night at Teluk Gong. Stupid work laaa...everyone knows im taking leave on Saturday, purposely like wan me to finish up everything on friday nite. Felt quite paiseh to have all of them, i think around 20+ turned up, waiting for me to "lou sang"..hahahahahahaha...good to catch up with everyone after almost a year !! 2:30am, i thought tat will end my uber tiring day after fetching the gals back, but i went over for another yumchar session with Alvin, Yoon Sing and Twu Chin. Alvin, who just came back a day ago from Shanghai for a short CNY holiday.( have to give face..hahaha ) Still the same buddy that i know but maybe a bit thinner now.

Skiat is back also, from Beijing. Think will see him very soon.



Just had reunion lunch just now. Both parents ok back di..heh. Good news :)

And yesterday was quite surprised when i reached home, my room is sooo tidy. Stoned for a while. I thought my mom did it, but only found out it was my dad. Lagi surprise then..ahhahaha...

I haven't wash the car yet. And i haven't even cut my hair yet. I hadn't bought any new clothes for CNY..where have all my time gone ?? i really dunno..work ? more like a slave..ahahha..

Well..still...its holiday now. Need to continue to catch up with my sleep. Tonight most probably will be the start of the gambling session at yoon sing's place. Haha..the tradition ! hahahaha...

Im tired but feeling warm and happy, but too lazy to smile.
Happy Chinese New Year Everyone !!!!!!

Damn....im fucking impressed...this MV was did by our locals. Malaysian. Love Me Butch. Go download and watch it if you think malaysian sucks...

www.lovemebutch.com

Im impresseddd...

Monday 11pm

Yesterday i reached home around 8 plus, which is kinda early for me..hahahaha...got myself prepared for today's jamming session. Got a call then went out yumchar with the Hunterians gang. Its been a while since we last sat down and have a good time. It was about 11pm time to go when we coming out plans of what to do for CNY this year, as many of us start working on the 4th or 5th day i think. I forgot who came out with this saying, "hey..we so long didn't go singk di" ... "come la..we go during CNY"..." ehh, come la..we go now !" ... "sure or not boh ?" ...." yalah, you think i kidding ahh" ...forgot who said which sentences, but the next thing we know, 7 of us were heading towards Newsktv..ahahahaha

I like on the spot surprise planning...but that is if its not too much. hahaha..coz like for now...im so damn sleepyyyy....reached home yesteday around 2am in the morning..by the time mandi, then online a bit..waiting for hair to dry...its almost 3 oledi...hahahaha..help helped...:(

Yesterday, I told my AEs i got relatives wedding tonight..hahahahahhaahhaa...so im not gonna stay on late for work tonight...yea yea

Today the office seems so quiet, becoz the so called "mother" is not in yet...hahahaha, as she have a meeting going on, coming in only at 11. So no job brief for me in the next hour..yeh yeh....

OSX

K..wooo...finally get to change my working comp from OS9 to OSX ...hahahaa..nice nice :)

K...So now have to get myself to get use to this new comp...different shortcut keys...but the expose is quite cool..hahahaha

K..i remember i used to hate Mac ... ahahahaa...


K. Well, jamming tomolo night. Jake roped in his ex.bassist. Really hope no one ffk this time, and hopefull hopefully please i dun have to work late tomolo.

K. Well, the past week have been really tiring. Didn't really have enough sleep for almost everyday..

K..have to work.. Rush hour again.

space out

These days, every morning when im on the way driving to work, my mind keep have this like space out kind of feelings. Alot of stupid stupid thoughts went in and out of my mind. Stare blankly, observing the cars and peoples in trafific jam, you tend to see alot of small habit and movements everyone have. Listening to hitz.fm, the lyrics of some of the songs sounds so clear and obvious, which you never really get what they are singing the last few times u heard it. i laughed to the stupid hitz morning crew jokes. which sometimes a little annoying as my face muscle is not fully stretch yet..hahahaha...sometimes i really hope the next song will be a song that i know how to sing, or at least like the song...but it never happened..ahahahah..i would like to hear the new Steven Tyler collaborate with Santana song, forgot whats the song title, and Weezer's "perfect situation"..where you can go "oh hoooo... oh hooo.." hehehe...the last time i heard that santana's song, i was about to pump petrol..potong stimm. I need a cd player..hhahahahaa

Always thought of to update this the first thing i reached office. But will always have deadline either by 10 or 11, rushing rushing, big contrast with my space out driving on the way. My new working environment so far so good la. Workload is forever like war rushing for deadlines, design and illustrations wise still ok but i hate it when the client come back that they wanted a new art direction, there it goes all over again...the fun part, and is also the scary part, is to hear some internal politics and gossips happening in the office, or how when a event was screwed up and you see the big shot people swinging doors and banging tables, not to forget the loud swearing..hahahahaha...kesian some of the despatch boys, forever kena marah from 2 sides.

My band wise, i dunno what happened. But Inez pulled off last minute, saying that she still not mature and independent enough to join us, which i think kinda a weird reasons. So we didn't get to jam at the end, kinda potong stim...so near yet so far...hahaha...but my passion is still there, i will keep looking around.

Good news is we closed our first account finally. And you know , my little brother kena 4D !!! 2nd prize...RM3000 !!! lucky bastard him..hahaha..and u know, the number he bought is my 2nd bro's car plate number...hahahahahahahahahahaaa

Syoknya Fatt Choy

My AE and copywriter and most of the important people went off for the "Syoknya Fatt Choy" event. The office quite quiet now..hahahahahahaa...can sampat sampat with the colleagues and the new staff that came in today.

Kinda excited now. After few rounds of waiting, finally having Inez for bass, Jake for vocals, me on guitars and Weiloon on drums, jamming our own original songs as soon as everyone is prepared. I really really hope it will be one hell fun jamming session !!! coz this will be the first time we playing original tracks, really dunno how it will turn out. In a way, like a bit "manufactured"..but its a step nearer i guessed :)

But im damn stuck now to pen down the lyrics for Jake. shit shit...crap.

Today i was rushing so just simply wear one of my bro's long pants. It was then when i reached office, found out that the back part below pocket sudah koyak...damn big hole somemore..damn shittyy...aii aii...and imagine i have to keep going up and down for test printing...@#$$3$@

k.. off

Street Roar

Went to Street Roar @ KL Performing Arts Centre on Saturday night ( you know, ....but it was kinda fun. They have bands from Japan, HK, Korea and Malaysia. But the venue was kinda damp from the rain. damn...there goes my shoes and jeans. I went with Dow Wei, Eshuan, Chufan and Sin, met Weiloon and friends and Sean there.

The highlight will be when this HK band False Alarm goes up the stage..imagine HK chinese people singing English...tak ngam ehh..hhahaha...it was then Dow Wei start getting high after some beers and making fun. They were singing this song with the chorus like "go away"...then Dow Wei start shouting "go awayyyyy....go awayyyyy..... please go awayyyyyyy"...even when they are playing the verse...damn shit..everyone was looking at us..wuahahahhahaa...damn paisehhh.. !!!! then after a while, i dun care oledi also...i followed Dow Wei, " go awayyyy go awayyy...just fucking go awayyyy" hahahahaha..tat was fun !hahahahahaa...then after that, they jammed this song titled "give me more" ...then Dow Wei started it againnn..."give me more !!!1 give me more !!!!", "let's get retardedddd !!!"..."yeah..lets get retardedddd !!!! " "give me moreeeee!!!!"hahahahahahhaaa....tat was damn weird..everyone was smilingggg..hahahahahahahahaa...and ya..mind you..yes..we are only about 3 meter from the stage !!! hahahahahahahaa... but actually their music is quite ok..just the vocalist...damn nah pek...ownself jumped until his black spec fell off...damn xia xui..ahhahahahaa

Well, in my opinion. I think our Malaysian local music scene bands are much better than them. Just ask Love Me Butch, or Butterfingers, or Disagree, or Dragon Red be on stage, it will make them look like high school college bands..ahahah...no offense ya..just my opinion

Office toilet scandal

You know...my office toilet got 2 cubicle
you know...i was shitting today with earphone listening to my phone mp3
you know...i didn't switch on the light coz i think its bright enough to see
you know...a colleague bang on my door thought it wasn't occupied
you know...i didn't hear him or her, coz my ear is occupied
you know...he or she switched on the light for me
you know...then he or she switched off the light
you know...then he or she switched on the light back again
you know...then only i realised someone is outside
you know...i can heard he or she went into the next cubicle
you know...our office toilet walls top part was not fully separated
you know...which allows some air ventilation
you know...back to shit
you know...i heard something
you know...then i smell something
you know...it doens't smell like my own shit
you know...i recognise my own shit smell
you know...it smells weird
you know...i was wondering where is my shit smell
you know...i think he or she must have lao sai
you know...or else it wont overpowered my own shit smell
you know...then i heard stimulating farts like engine
you know...it makes you frown..eeeeee..
you know...you subconscious trying to sniff how is the smell this time
you know...he or she finished off faster than me
you know...i still dunno who is it...hahahaha..
you know...when im done and out, glad i have no changes for my design :)

ROCK

I went to watch ROCK yesterday, alone..hahaha..coz i know sure i never going to find anyone to teman me to watch that movie. Ya, its a malay movie, about rock music.

Oh..well..it was crap. My first crap movie of the year. Thought it will inspired or motivate me. Blek.

my first sin of 2006

2005 new year eve i was at Ikano. Countdown finished and everyone start celebrating and spraying those "snow". Was quite hyper, drew picked up one of the finished snow spray cans, i took it from him and play with it for fun. was busy playing, a guy came over and asked
"hey, where did you bought that ? how much is one can ? "
"you want ah..i can sell you this for 10 bucks ! not selling in other place anymore lehhhh ! oledi very cheap !"

of course..i didn't conned him in the end..hahahaha

was on the way walking out of Ikano. Envy seeing some small kids playing with those snow cans. Picked up another empty snow spray. Then i saw this little gal with 2 spray cans in her hands. Happily spraying ! I went up to her, handed her my empty cans, smile at her, then signal her to pass me one of her snow can ! AND SHE DID !!!!!!!! AND I TOOK IT !!! hhahahahahahahahaaa..

without even turning back, i just walk away after that. then i spray at all my friends..ahahahahahaa


I CONNED A LITTLE GAL !!!!

Now i felt a bit guilty after 2 days later..hahahaha..just a little bit.

lesson of the day : don't simply take things from stranger..hahahahahahaa...

To you : sorry sorry...not everytime you met people like me, there are alot of good people out there. I hope you grow up to be a pretty and nice gal. I see you again next year maybe ..hehehehe..

2006

Finally it came to a new year. I guessed 2005 wasn't really a good year for me.hahaha..too many ups and downs. Been through the lowest point of my life in one period i guessed. Work wise i think i kinda screwed up also.

I dunno what i planned to achieve by 2005, i think i didn't set any also. hahahahaa..

Like chichi, shouldnt believe in new year resolution also..if wanna do can just do anytime..hahaha..but well, i just have few plans for 2006.

1. doing the right path for my career.
2. get a band. get into the local music scene
3. write more killer songs ! hahaha..
4. not screwing up anything anymore.
5. don't take things for granted anymore.
6. not to be broke..this is hard i guess..hahahaha



Happy New Year everyone ! :)

Hui Guo Shu (1)

photograph

If you have a minute
why don't we go somewhere only we know ?

Call me please. I know you will...:)

He's back

he's backkkkk ! welcome back ! for good ! hahahahaha...

Merry Christmas everyone. And have a good holiday ! :p

zoom

One thing good about having phone with mp3 is that...i dun need the hassle to on my computer and listen to some songs before sleeping everytime. I like to put on headphone for a while before sleep sometimes. Now with a phone with mp3, i can just listen to it directly through earphone. When done, just switch it off, and sleep. Just like cd player la..ehhehe..

Oh ya, i just don't have the habit of letting the pc on and then go to sleep. I just cant..hahaha..well, maybe coz im not listening to those soothing jazzy kind of music kua..i listen rock most of the time..hahahaha... and i just cant bare to let the pc on the whole night for nothing, unless im downloading stuffs la.

well..if you weren't too irritated by distortion-nised rock music, can have a listen to some of my recent stuffs here :)

Oh well..time to sleep.nite

job

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Three days

"eh, you look like Cheah Soon Kit. You main badminton ? you adik Cheah Soon Kit kah ?"

"dia sudah mahu balik main badminton."



this is the 2nd time people said i look like Chia Soon Kit's brother...do i ? hhmm.... hahaha..

678

Since many are doing it..this is my version..hehehe

8 things that freak me out

1. How puffy my eyebags can be when i look in the mirror first thing in the morning.
2. curry mee with alot of si ham.
3. at home watching tv with romantic scenes or plots, with my brothers or dad behind or together. Feels so damn weird..haha..wish i have a sister :)
4. flying cockcroaches !! @#$!@$!@$#!
5. when i cant find my Touch n Go card upon reaching toll !
6. seeing how long the traffic jam queue after the Subang Toll !
7. my own imaginations and predictions.
8. how people react the first time i tell them my name..really.hahaha..


6 things to do before i die

1. form a famous band, have my own album record, have fan based..!
2. set up my own design brand company
3. BMW !!! BMW !! BMW !!
4. kinky erotic sex !!
5. travel around the world
6. run a cafe or live band pub.

6 often repeated words

1. ma chao hai !
2. Ah..really ah ?
3. backside !
4. diu
5. hello hello !
6. eerrr...hhmm..

7 random facts about me

1. sometimes i hate smokers although i do smoke once a while. hehe
2. hate listening to my own vocals. But i like to sing.
3. i like to watch tvb dramas !! like i always said, my inspirations leh ! hehehe..
4. sometimes i do take friends for granted.
5. im just another horny slutty bastard.
6. i think im a bit biased towards other races.
7. i like small kids..hahahaha

6 people whom im about to tag

1. bennyboi
2. jessie
3. binbin
4. chi chi
5. yee-i van
6. the rest on my friend's blog list

Perhaps Love

Perhaps Love.

It makes me feel sad.

priceless memories...

Pine

flocks of cloud cast a grey shadow on our heart
listening to the deepest lonely feelings i have
cystral clear and transparent
just like a beautiful scenery
it always seems clearer in the memories

Can a badly hurted heart still continue love me
i try hard to lift a temperature-less hand
once a caring soul now being locked in time
left with sadness that cant be erased

gradually falling pine leaves are like miss
i light up a fire to warm up the spring
a speed of light steal the sky
north wind blows and cover your face from my mind
i burn the love like falling leaves
but still i can't bring back that familiar face

gradually falling pine leaves are like miss
why do we need to bring it back before winter comes
loving you through time
two lines of tears from the fall of spring
let love sinked into the ground
what i want is just you beside me

at
the hill waist where the red rain falls
died with the north wind
i slowly play with the wind chime

wanted
to wake the forgotten love
snow were all over the place
i fear the pine leaves outside had became ice by now

Hehehehe...was listening to Jay Chou's new album, came across this song..was playing it over and over again yesterday. Found the lyrics finally, and its damnnn poetry...terlalu metaphor..hahahaa..couldn't help but try to translate it DIRECT into English, but seriously, my england damn peh and it really lost the meaning that the song actually trying to convey..makes it sounds funny..hahahahaha...

If you know chinese, sure u will notice a lot of mistake words usage in it..hahahaa..who caressss

Sorry Jay Chou fans...ahhahahaha..but this is a nice song.. :)

keew

the week...

Had a small primary school gathering on Tuesday night. Met Poh Chuen, Mun Leng, Joanne, Chee Hong, Lucien and Heng Loong, who all i haven't been really keep in touch for the past 9-10 years. Was kinda fun when all starting to, "i remembered last time ah..." then start all the old grandma's story di. Hope they get to organise another gathering soon. Hehehe...

Got this sms message from RUSH saying it was "Naughty Ladies Night" on Thursday. Last minute decision to go with Sin, since i got membership card that allows me to bring 2 friends in free, but some miscommunication happens and screwed it up. Ended up watching Harry Porter midnight show.

Friday nite, went Slippery Senorita with the Babis. Ek came back. Hey, thanks so much for bringing back my sweaters..hehehehe..owe u big one. Well, when i thought its gonna be a short nite out, we ended up hitting McD's later till late 3am. That's when the previous post came from.."7 red lights"..hahahah.. it was fun, like Swee said, "we so long didn't sit down and eat fries oledi.." but that nite got no wind at all. Kinda hot.

Went jamming on Saturday noon. After like, almost a year break or more. Hooked up with a bassist, Sean, that i found through jamtank forum. Well, goes kinda well. Weiloon's drumming slack like hell oledi...hahahaha...Sean bassline, well, he is only 19 years old, good enough. And me myself not that good either..hahahaha...but it was fun la.

The night was in Sin's old house. A piano, A pair of cards, a bottle of red wine, a bottle of Johnnie Walker, 2 packs of peanuts, and a home video karaoke, running old greatest hits songs like "sleeping child", "can you feel the love tonight", " always", "love me for a reason".....

Today i was feeling kinda sick the whole day. Must be the hangover a bit..hehehe.. Hope tomolo is a better day.

K. Damn tired and sleepy now.

ps. thanks for giving me a 2nd chance :)

7

I went through 7 red lights on my way back..with Shakira's dunno what song which has this chorus, "don't bother, i will be fine"

4am in the morning.

Next Wishlist

Woo..i saw and tried this on last week while waiting for my friend, at Bentley's Music. Actually i always wanted to get a new pedal. When the shopguy asked me what pedal i use now, "the very first ZOOM505"...he gave me that one kind look..hahahahahaaa...coz ZOOM505 is one of the very first multi pedal that came out, that was like back 4-5 years ago.

What attracted me the most about this pedal is the simple, analog style, and the "Cry baby"(wah wah) pedal. The guy play and demonstrate using the "wah wah" effect on a distortion mode. It was cool and now i know how some guitarist do those effects ! sort of like..cheating..technically cheating..in a way..heheheh..

K..i think most of you wouldn't understand what im saying..watever..ahahahah..

Tube Mic

call me jakun or katak bawah tempurung or whatever..but this is the first time i see a tube mic..hahahaha...cool !

Met JD from Pop Shuvit, Jinn and his rapper, MC David, and a few crew members of KLG Sqwad in 21:05 Production. Nice place, nice people. Everything is so exciting until i was given advice that the recording studio price that im going to do might be higher than expected. aii..

I need sponsors..aii aii...

I will laugh back at you one day

I've tried not to blog about this few days ago. Coz i know if i did, sure it will turn out to be another fuck here and there post..hhmm..

Well..long story short, im jobless now. Our boss didn't wanted to pay us last month salary, with reason saying we didn't do work up to his expectation, where as it was our work and ideas that got them the first two projects, he claimed only will pay us if we finished up the company website and artbook in 2 weeks, and he must be satisfied. He still thinks we are stupid. And he don't want to meet us, i think he dun even dare to meet us, he want us to send to him online. I really want to say straight to him, "FUCK YOU"

Well, could be my fault as we didn't push to get the employment and confirmation letter signed and stuffs. We kept asking time to time and they kept delay it, until this happens..there is alot more that i wanted to say about him, but forget it..shit happens..ranting won't help. I learnt my lesson.

He better disappear and don't let me see him again..i dunno what i will do..seriously...

His name is Lionel Yoong. Drives a white Mercedes 8398. Lives in Bangsar. Whoever wants to know more about him, let me know. 012-3710652

Although im being cheated and conned, i still believes things happened for a reason. And of course..shit happens. He is stupid as he let us knows too much, and he pissed us off. I believe, one day i will look back and laugh at him.

Back to job hunting again. And might have some new future plans ahead. hopefully.hehehe..

Start ?

Yesterday i was excited. Out of dunno what reason, i send some of my recent demos to a local band, Vespertine's vocalist, Jinn. The band that i went for audition few months ago. hehe..After i sent, he replied that he thinks my tracks are cool, and wanted to collaborate with me, taking over the vocals for my demo. We talked over the phone. He offered to do a single track recording with me, told me about how the process is going to be, what is involved, the studio and mixing price shit.

"so are you in ?"
"Yes. But can you let me think through over it for a night ?"
"what is it that you are uncertain ? i can help"
"its all too sudden. Well, but sad but true, budget is the thing that is bothering me a bit."
"Yeah. Its coz you haven't been through the industry yet. But im proceeding you with what i normally do"

The night i did thought about it. Asking for friends opinions. I dunno why i think he might be using my songs to promote their band or stuffs...coz this year, i made really alot of wrong decisions and mistakes.

"yes. im in"

Today, i sent some of my other recorded demos to him, just for the sake to share, really. And i went out to chill. I got a call from Jinn just now saying that one of the track that i sent sounded alike with one of their band track, and he sounded kinda impressed, in a way, saying i copy their style..hahaha..

"ok..now..would you like to play shows for Vespertine ? i will considered having you play with us for our upcoming shows.. are you interested ?"
"Yes. Im in. Thats so cool man"
"cool. But i need to talk to the guys. You know, i have 5 other bandmembers. Everyone have their own opinion..hahaha"
"yea..of course i understand"
"ok.cool. i will call you soon. peace dude !"

That made my day. All this comes so sudden. The day was a disaster..i dunwan to talk about it here..but i guessed most of people know what happened.. but that call made my night. And he just edit and rewriting the new chorus for my song that we gonna be recording soon. Talk about passion..fuuu..Dunno how soon, but he arranged and will be meeting JD from pop shuvit soon to discuss about it.

I dunno how this will end up. Will this be another wrong decision and investment ? but whatever, making music is always one of my passion. Anyway, i think im kinda numb with any kinds of outcomes and false hope. But i think i learn and grow with each lessons..hehehe

I realised whenever there is a happy thing happening, there might be a bad thing happens in the same time. So does that means that, when the happy time past, the bad times will come ? and so for the latter ? hahaa..k.this is bullshit. But thats what happened to me for now..hahahaha

I have hopes. But dun dare to hope for too much. See what else this year can offer me before it ends...hahahaha...

Nasi Lemak Antarabangsa

Went to this so-called famous "Nasi Lemak Antarabangsa" somewhere in the malay rural area in Ampang. Really dunno how to describe the location, kinda old rugged place, longkang everywhere and un-hygience environment.

Went with TC and ah Seng, who they have planned to go since last week but didn't get the chance. Okla..yea..the nasi lemak is nice. Nice, but not to say anything special..how special can a nasi lemak be rite ? maybe the sambal ? hhmm..somemore the normal RM1.30 nasi lemak is without egg one, have to pay extra for the egg...

But then...look at the queue... imagine at around 11:30pm at night with these people lining up just to eat nasi lemak...hahahahaha...didn't really went and took upclose pics, banyak orang..paisehh lehh.. If only my phone camera don't have the "ka chak" sound..hehehe..



And you know, after we finished eating, we saw this one "siu keong" (cockcroach) landed on top of one of the dunno what sambal kari container top. Crawling...crawling... KNNBECCB !

Drive along and rounding around Jalan Haji Taib 2 after that..hahaha...with all the infamous ah kuas and pimps..kinda scary sight.. i was kinda excited at first..asked Ah Sing to pick me up at the other end.. i wan to walk along the street a bit. I just started walking, i can hear a pimp shouting at me, rushing over my side, "lengchai, ci peng wu sui ehh" ( handsome, here got nice one ! ) ..saw this one small snack shop still open, went inside and hide for a while, pretend choosing a drink..hahaha..then i patah balik..hahahaha...i remembered seeing this one that look like a female wrestle .. fuiyoo..the muscle...imagine that....!!! hahahahahhaaa...

walls walls

Since last month, our neighbour start thrashing the walls and extending the walls to make another room. Before this, our small balcony here use to be very windy even on hot afternoons. But now with the neighbour extending out the space, the wind is block, and afternoon sun shines weren't that bright as before..sigh..

My mom was a bit upset about it. My brother voiced out why don't we make a complain, coz they didn't really discuss with us first before building the space. And because of the construction, alot of the debris, cement and sand dirtied my mom small garden area...which they didn't apologised or offered to clean up for us also...not to mentioned the early morning grilling and hammering. Kinda frusfrating. But, sad but true, complain also no use coz they oledi halfway done.
Besides, this neighbour was me and my lil bro's piano teacher, but that was way 10 years back ago di la. They have a twins back then. I think they must have another familiy member di which they decided to build another room.



Talk about civic minded...

black stud

Try out with my phone camera. Not too bad eh the resolution and quality. But of course, it look poor when taken at night. Pictures taken below weren't photoshopped..ahhahaha..but of course use photoshop to arrange la..hehehe..



Got myself a new black stud. "Wahh..finally after one year...hahaha"

abit lala. I know. dun care !

Thai Club No More

Went Thai Club yesterday night for sort of the Raya countdown. Thai Club sucks...really sucks. All ahlians and ahbengs. My shoes were stepped like dunno how many fxxking times, being pushed and squeezed that it smells of sweat + 2 times smoke everywhere, damn !!! can't even danced for freaking 2 mins sure you will kena pushed or being pushed..so damn potong stimm...fxxk laaa..hey, wan to shuffle go Atmosphere or clubs tat place Techno or House music la....you are not and can't even dance to the beat and you were dancing on the stage..haiyooo...menyasuikannn... hey, aren't you hot ? are you sick ah ? if not why are you wearing that jacket ? why is that colour shade ? you blind meh ? haiyooo...beh tahan..eshuan said, "why the caucasian people look so good with the coloured hair, but why the chinese here look so ahbengs with the coloured hair ???" hahahahhaa... and you know the DJ even announced, " to all the chinese in the club !!! we wish you Selamat Hari Raya !!!!!" wtf..... ( i don't remember seeing any Malay inside btw )

The worst club in KL i think. No more next time lor. But the CheeCheongFun+KunlooMee supper at Sunway after that burned down my fire a bit..good food makes you happy ! hahahaha...

After being nagged and tk-ed "n" times by everyone, especially my fatty, i finally bought myself a new phone. Got new toy to play..yeahh..hahahahaha...Now my phone won't die off halfway talking, won't have to hang and reset halfway while messaging...hehehe.. This would be so far the highest amount of money i spent on an item on my own, after monthly car instalment, and the Wacom tablet. Well, of course don't count my Ibanez guitar and amp stuffs coz those were more of taken from my dad's allowance for me in Aus..hehehehe..

Butterfly are not meant to be catch

Went mamak with 14k girl after like ffk-ing each other so many times throughout the months. Hearing her bullshitted about her work, the traffic jams, as usuals laaa..but it was nice catching up with her after so long. Wanita korporat in the making ! hehehehee..

Met Sin and Kevin after that. Was asked, gonna give it a think this few days whether to join partner with both of them to runs a hangout cafe here in Klang.

Was bored, and a little upset and dissappointed over some stuffs the night later. Bought 2 cans of Gatorade and Shandy ( supposed to be beers, but im broke ! didn't knew a can of beer was at least RM7 lehh !! ) and went over fatty's place, the KTM jejantas that i always wanted to go up, but haven't got the chance yet. Was kinda creepy, with overlooking trees shadows here and there, luckily not alone..hahahaha..well, drink soft drinks (pathetic!), smoked, and bullshitted the night away... thats what you do when you don't have to work tomolo, and you are broke ! hahahaha...

You know what, i didn't knew Shandy tasted so niceeee !! remembered how i hate it few years back during CNY period when Shandy is everywhere. I think maybe im so used to beer and liquor, that Shandy suddenly tasted so..sweet. ahahahahaha...

Onionnnn..go sleep laaa !!! in front of the computer but dunwan do work somemore !!! skip ur breakfast onlyyy !! faster write your esssay !!! hahahaha...

Hari Raya is not here yet !

Went Alexis on Friday nite, jazz bar somewhere in Jln Ampang. It was my first time, with Ben, Jessie, Weiloon, Cath, Daphne, and Amir. Chichi was there with her friends, Ben's friends were there too. Wooo..the jazz band performance was great, damn tight, with an awesome female vocals. Click on Chichi's blog about the jazz thingy..heheheh.

Dropped by Poppy after that, with Wei Loon, Cath, Daphne and Jessie. Met Dow Wei, Eshuan, Gary and friends over there. It rained before that, so the floor were quite wet and damp, but quite alot hot chicks that night..hahahahaha...

Didn't expected will go but end up going Loft @Zouk on Saturday night, with Jessie, Tek Mun, Weiloon and about 7-8 or maybe more of his friends. Open 2 bottles. Without hesitate, i start taking down more than 8 cups of Black Label Coke in within an hour time i think. It was only like just 12 midnight when i was oledi damn high and of course everyone knows that, and everyone try making me a fool ! hahaha..well..i think im a fool when im drunk. That 2 hours after that was damn high and fun. Dancing, screaming, drinking, teasing, peeing..ahahah..met Kenny on the dance floor, who happened to know one of weiloon's friend. Small world again.

Hahahhaa..when it was 3am+, time to go, im sober back again. At least sober than the other 2 gals, sober enough to drive..heheheh..even passed by "polis operasi" check without being stopped..fuuuu....:)

Forgot what i did on Sunday afternoon. I think chat online the whole noon. Went mamak at night with Joanne, it rained. It stopped. And it rained again. Damn potong stim weather. Have to like sit in the corner, no air at all..hahahaha..

Worked this afternoon. Went for dinner + Corpse's Bride + yumchar with Jessie, Ben and Ann. Corpse's Bride was nice and funny. Go watch go watch ! Ann ahh..next time dun be late lorrr !!! hehehe...

Ehh..pizza boy..i want tat disagree's t shirt also, quite nice..hehehehe..

btw..i just got to know Cath, Daphne, Tek Mun, and Amir throughout the weekends actually.:)

btw..happy deepavali everyone !

btw...selamat hari raya is not here yet !